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:: CATWOMAN ::
:: TREASURED MEMORIES ::
.June 2005.
.July 2005.
.August 2005.
.September 2005.
.October 2005.
.November 2005.
.December 2005.
.January 2006.
.February 2006.
.March 2006.
.April 2006.
.May 2006.
.June 2006.
I do not wish to be just a fair-weather friend.
Someone whom you approach when you finally have some free time.
Someone whom you meet for a catching up session every few months.
Someone whom you talk to but yet still keep certain things to yourself.
That was not how this friendship started.
That was not how this friendship is supposed to be.
That was not how this friendship came about.
Being attached makes me whole, as a person.
So why are there people who think being attached makes one lesser as a friend?
Doesn't it contradict everything?
If you ask me, personally I have not been much lesser as a friend. Never. I may have changed. For the better or worse, that I do not know. That is how all of you perceive me. However, when it comes to friendships, I hold it so dear to my heart.
Because I know, I will need to run to my friends each time I need a shoulder to cry on. Because I know, at the end of the day, my friends understand me better than my boyfriend. Because I know, my friends have been there for me right from the start.
What is in a status may I ask?
Being in a relationship means I have found someone whom I can connect with on a whole different level. Someone that I am attracted to physically. Someone that makes me happy. And this someone also can make me so mad but yet at the end of the day, it's still this someone that I want to be with. Someone who is able to take me to another place called Love.
Love is a sacred thing between 2 people. I may confide in my friends but never will I get them involved in my love life. The decisions that I make are all mine. Even if it was a mistake to have gotten attached in the first place when all of my friends were single, let me learn from my mistakes.
As long as I know that I still have my wonderful friends to turn to, I will pick myself up even after my entire world has crumbled.
I want to be your friend. I want to be let into your life. An attached person does not make her much different from her single friends. She still needs her friends. She still wants to go on retail therapy with her girl friends. She still wants to bitch about people with her girl friends.
She still wants her friends to be her bridesmaids on her big day.
However, if being attached has reduced my friendship status with you, then I'll gladly accept it. Even if it means being shut out of your life when it comes to certain things. Even if it means only knowing the minute details and nothing more than that.
Even if it pains me for not being able to be a part of your life like I used to.
As stubborn as I can be, as hard-hearted as I can be, I think of others too. I'm sure the rest do not want to see this friendship break apart.
So for them, I'll be glad to carry on with things according to your terms.
And for him, I'm willing to pretend as if nothing happened between you and me because I made a promise to him that I will not let go of the friendship just like that. I do not want him to feel torn because of all these.
If status matters to you, then let me be reduced to being a fair-weather friend as a punishment for getting attached to him.
I gained him, but I lost the rights to be your close friend like old times.
This is my final say.
