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.June 2005.
.July 2005.
.August 2005.
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.April 2006.
.May 2006.
.June 2006.
And so im bored. Like super bored. Im waiting for a few more hrs till i get to meet Ansari and send him off to camp. Bleah. My hair is already nicely done. I still have not decided what to wear (like what else is new right?).
I tell u... Having lots of clothes can certainly be a disadvantage. Im juz too spoilt for choice and seeing that im very fickle minded, i always have a hard time making decisions. Kadang-kadang nak decide what to eat pun susah.
Like on Sunday... I thought of wearing my new blue babydoll tube dress with my new blue capelet but my mind was bent on wearing my yellow pumps (which i have not worn since the trip to the zoo). At first i thought of purposely making my outfit clash. So blue top, blue jeans and only yellow pumps. Not so bad right?
But somehow i duno why i was soooooooo bent on wearing my yellow pumps. So in the end i wore my yellow off shoulder top. Sheeeeeeesh.
Last nite i was chatiing with Nora and she started calling me Jenab. Ohhh gaaawd. Den she was telling me that there were a few mat msia yg hensem. Ohhh gaaawwwddd. Nora kan i dah pesan... Jgn flirt dgn Mat Msia. I tak bagi. Kan i dah ckp, before any guys nak berkenalan dgn u, dia kene get thru me and ur bro dulu. And make sure he pandai masak. Jadi u tak kelaparan.
WAHUAHUA
So somehow our conversation of course turned crappy. And i actuali told her that if im called Jenab, den Ansari shld be called Abg Dol and right at that moment Ansari actuali replied using Nora's MSN. Action marah la konon yang i called him Abg Dol. Ahahaha. Funneh la. Fuuunnnneeeeehhhhhhhhhh.
Ok i duno why im even blogging abt dis. Im juz super borrrrreeed la. Faster la 7pm. Cepaaaat. Den i can meet Ansari alreadi.
(eh Abg Dol baru tuliskan i testi?? hahaha. dammit. kalau abg erza reads his testi, nanti Ansari kene. dammit)
Anywaaaayyys below there's a short story (now u noe how bored i am)...
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Siti Jenab Bedok Bercinta Dgn Abg Dol Tampines
Pada satu hari, Siti Jenab dan kawan-kawan sebaya dan sewaktu dengan nye sedang berjalan di Tampines Interchange. Mereka baru je habis shopping kat TM. Lagi-lagi si Siti Rokiah tu... suke nah TM. Sikit-sikit TM.
Jadi tgh jalan... jalan... Siti Rokiah ternampak cousin dia. Nama dia Dol. Si Dol tu tgh duduk bertenggek kat railing... Tempat orang beratur untuk naik bas. Jadi Siti Rokiah pergi la berbual dgn cousin dia. Siti Jenab dan Siti Petom Timah ikut dari belakang.
Bual punye bual, si Siti Jenab dan Dol sikit-sikit tengok at each other. Tapi tengok macam malu-malu kucing gitu laaah. Tak berani bertentang mata terlalu lama. Nanti ape pulak Siti Rokiah cakap kan?? Tak manis.
Untuk memendekkan cerita... Siti Jenab dan Dol mula lah berkenalan melalui Friendster dan MSN. Beberape bulan lepas tu, baru tukar nombor. Hohoho. Dari situ, mereka semakin rapat. Rapat-serapat nye.
Satu hari, si Dol tu sound si Siti Jenab untuk jadi makwe nye. Siti Jenab pun setuju lah. Dah suke same suke. Kalau nak jual mahal, nanti takot melepas.
Bila Siti Rokiah dapat tahu... fuuuuuuhhhh dia punye la marah. Sebab dia tak sangke perkare seperti itu akan berlaku. Dia marah sebab takde orang bilang dia yang Siti Jenab dgn Dol semakin rapat. Haha. Tapi lama-kelamaan, Siti Rokiah dapat menerima kenyataan dan dia pun tumpang gembira.
Beberape bulan kemudian, Dol berjumpe dgn Siti Jenab. Dengan nada suare yang sedih, dia terpakse beritahu Siti Jenab berita yang tak baik.
"Jenab... Abg Dol ade berita tak baik nak beritahu Jenab..."
"Ohhh... Ape dia??"
"Abg Dol terpakse tinggalkan Jenab..."
"Kenape??! Ape salah Jenab??!!"
"Jenab tak bersalah... Abg Dol terpakse tinggal kan Jenab buat sementare..."
"Kenape?? Abg Dol nak gi mane??"
"Jenab tahu kan yang Abg Dol adalah Ahli Silat untuk Kumpulan Silat Bagi Orang-Orang Yang Tak Gelap??"
"Tahu..."
"Jadi... Abg Dol dah buat keputusan... untuk menghapuskan si Anneh Gelap tu..."
"Untuk ape?? Biarkan lah dia..."
"Tak boleh. Abg Dol mesti lakukan ni. Untuk Siti Rokiah dan untuk Jenab yang Abg amat sayang..."
"Tapi Abg akan tinggalkan Jenab..."
"Sekejap je. Tak lama. Lepas Anneh tu dah dikalahkan, Abg Dol akan balik ke pangkuan Jenab..."
"Tapi Jenab akan risau..."
"Jgn risau... Abg Dol pergi dgn kawan-kawan Abg Dol..."
"Brape lame Abg Dol akan pergi??"
"Sampai Anneh tu dikalahkan..."
"Tapi dia sangat merbahaye..."
"Percaya lah pada Abg Dol..."
"Abis... ape Jenab nak buat sementare Abg Dol tiade di sini??"
"Kan Siti Rokiah ade. Siti Petom Timah. Adik Abg Dol, Siti Melor pun ade..."
"Alaaah. Tapi tak same. Nanti Jenab rindu kan Abg Dol..."
"Takpe lah. Abg Dol pergi tak lame. Jenab doa kan lah supaye Abg Dol selamat..."
Beberape bulan sudah lepas. Walaupun Siti Jenab kesunyian dan amat merindui Abg Dol, dia ade Siti Rokiah, Siti Petom Timah dan Siti Melor untuk menemaninye.
Pada satu petang, Siti Melor berlari ke rumah Siti Jenab. Kesian dia. Tercungap-cungap. Tapi jangan main-main tau. Siti Melor tu pelari wanita yang paling pantas di Tampines.
"Kak Jenab!! Kak Jenab!! Abg Dol dah balik!!"
"Iye ke?? Bile??"
"Baru ni. Skarang Abg Dol nak dtg sini dgn Ibu dan Ayah..."
"Buat pe?? Alamak. Kak Jenab blom mandi ni..."
"Alah takpe la. Kak Jenab tunggu je..."
Sebentar lagi, Abg Dol pun tiba di rumah Siti Jenab bersama kedua ibu-bapa nye. Tanpa membuang masa, Abg Dol pun melamar Siti Jenab...
"Sudikah Jenab menjadi isteri Abg Dol??"
"Tapi... tapi..."
"Jgn tapi-tapi. Buat beberape bulan yang lalu ni, Abg Dol sedar yang Abg Dol amat merindui Jenab. Abg Dol tidak boleh hidop tanpa Jenab..."
"Tapi... tapi..."
"Abg Dol janji yang Abg Dol takkan mensia-sia kan Jenab. Abg Dol akan jage Jenab..."
And they got married after that and lived happily ever after. And they had a dozen fair babies. Hohoho.
THE END
My hands very the tired already la. Bye people.
What started out as a day with absolutely NO PLANS turned out to be pretty well. U see i didnt know what time Ansari got to book out sooo i slept with the phone in my hands. When it vibrated at around 10am (i was still fast asleep), i woke up to read the sms.
Sooo i jumped out of bed, helped my mom with the laundry and changed the curtains after which i bathed quickly and got ready and went out of the house.
So met Ansari at Eunos MRT and off we went to Tampines in search of food or rather his breakfast. Of course shops were closed so he settled for something light. Epok-epok sardin, epok-epok kentang and jemput-jemput. Heee. Then we made our way to his house. Farah's maid was at his house actually, helping with the cleaning up so now we duno whether she will tell anyone that i came over.
So basically, Ansari slept for a few hours while i watched tv. Sembilu 2005 to be exact and i was actually tearing all by myself. Isssh. Teruk. And thennn i had to wake him up at 4pm. Aaaannnndddddddd i really suck at waking people up cos i always tak sampai hati.
Sooo i went into his room, sat on his bed and tapped his arms gently. Tapped and tapped tak bangun. So i tapped harder but still gently. Lulu told me that if he didnt wake up after being tapped gently, i should throw a pillow but if he still didnt wake up, i should pour water on him.
Thankfully he woke up after a few gentle taps. Then he told me to give him another hour to sleep and i smiled back and went to continue watching Sembilu 2005. Thennn after a short while he came out, put the pillow on my lap and conveniently lied down on it. Saje je tau. Isssh.
Sooo at around 6pm, he went to bathe and i went to sleep.
Went for dinner at East Coast. Been some time since i went there. We reached there at 830pm and it was pretty packed. The annoying thing was... my roti john special and bbq wings were sold out. Isssh. Irritating nye. Thus we settled for Indian food. Our satay didnt even come so we left.
He bullied me. Made me walk from the lagoon all the way to Marine Cove and then to Parkway Parade. BIG BULLY!! And he had the cheek to argue with me that the light flashing from the top of the condo towards the sea was a LIGHTHOUSE. Ohhh gaaaaaawd. Who in the world builds a lighthouse on land??
So i told him i'll do a research on that beam of light radiating from the roof of the condo and if he's wrong, he will have to get me a Nissan March. A real one ok. Not the main-main type.
As usual, there were lots of people camping along East Coast. The smell of the barbecued food was oh so nice. Jealoussss.
Ooooohhhh we saw fireworks!! Yaaa. The fireworks were at Marina actually but could still see them from East Coast la. Very clear. Very bright. Nice.
Upon reaching Marine Cove, we bumped into Erzat. Abg Erza's 2nd younger bro. I didnt see him actually. All i saw was a hand waving right smack under my nose. Haha. So finally Erzat got to meet Ansari.
Sat at Macs for a while and drank and had ice cream. Ansari was very notti. Notti notti. He corrupted my mind. Tak baik tau. Im so innocent. Sampai hati he corrupted my mind.
It was sooo tiring to walk despite being in my comfy yellow pumps that i started singing. A few nursery rhymes. Sheeeeesh. And Ansari juz made a selambe face all the way. Tak nak layan. Tak baik.
Reached Parkway, took 15 back to my place. After alighting from 15, he showed me the 3 stars that he had been wanting to show. Yup. While waiting for the traffic light to turn green, we got engrossed over the sky. Hahaha.
Walked to my house, and we stood at the void deck for 40 mins i think... STOOD and TALKED. It didnt feel like 40 mins thought. More like 10 mins.
And of course when i reached home closed to 1230am, my mom scolded me. Bleeeaaah. Dah tido tu buat je hal tido la. Tak payah bangun. Ayah cool je pe. It wasnt as if i didnt tell the both of them i was coming home late. Isssssh. Irritating.
Actually this entry doesnt do justice to how nice the day was. But it's ok. As long as i know it myself.
I think both of us really needed the time together. It has seriously been months since we did that. It was a good way to celebrate our 7 months anniversary. How time flies. 7 months already.
Hmmmm... Shall end this post by saying that (and i seldom do this)...
I LOVE ANSARI VERY VERY MUCH
Dah. Good nite.
I went on a date wif Dearie. Nothing romantic except for the part when the Caucasian waiter served our drinks and he opened her can of Sprite for her. But then again, he assumed the Sprite was for me, so maybe cos it was me, he helped to open it.
Hahahaha. Im sooo funny!!
Eh u noe, juz now while me, Lulu and Wani were waiting for the cab home at Downtown East, this reali selenge looking guy came up to us. I thot he was talking to Lulu cos from what i saw, his eyes were focused on her a bit longer. Reali. Tak bedek! That was what i saw tau.
But it turned out... his FREN wanted to berkenalan with me. Sheesh. When he said that, it didnt register into my head. Again i thot he was referring to Lulu and i even had time to look at my own feet. So when i realized the silence, i looked up and i went...
"Huh??!! Me??"
And the fella said yes. Then Lulu looked at him and said, "Tak boleh" then she turned away. And the stupid fella went on to ask why. For goodness sake!! Then i told him i was attached. Then he walked away after that he stopped and asked for my name. Firstly, what was the use of asking for my name kan? It wldnt change the situation. So i juz told him my name was "Az". Dennn he asked...
"Az?? Itu je??"
"Yes"
Ehhh dah bagos tu i didnt say my name was Jenab or smth. Nak melebih pulak dia.
Come to think of it, i shld have told him im called Jenab and im MARRIED. Biar mata dia terbeliak.
Soooo i had lots of fun today. First time i met Fahmie. The brudder so very the funny la. And i didnt realize Emil can be so giler-giler too. Gossssh. We went bowling and Kin, me and Fahmie got those reali cute lime coloured shoes. Complete wif velcro siak. So cute!!
We were joined by Syafique and his fren Firoz. Sooo me, Kin, Lulu, Fahmie, Syafique and Firoz bowled. The kecoh-ness and kaklar-ness. Gaaaaawd. And Kin was soooo bising. I duno where she got her energy from tau. Den kannn after they have had enough of all those kampung names, Fahmie kept shouting Erza's name each time Kin wanted to throw the ball.
And when it was Lulu's turn, they kept shouting Kassim's name. Hahaha. Gooodnesss. When it was my turn, they shouted Ansari's name.
Sooo i came in 2nd after Firoz. Alah by a mere 4 points only. Dammit. I shld have bowled more seriously. But was tired la. And i cldnt focus also.
I actuali didnt feel left out. Dun wori Lulu. The atmosphere was great and all. Juz that my mind was somewhere else. If not i wld have crapped along...
I reali wana thank Lulu, Emil, Fahmie, Kin and Wani for the enjoyable evening. Im sori i was very quiet. My mind was seriously somewhere else. I was worried and thinking of smth else. Bleeeeeeeaaaaaahhh.
I received a call from Ansari. He sounded so calm when he broke the news to me and there i was whining away after i heard it cos i simply REFUSED to understand every single thing that he told me. It was juz sooo unbelievable.
Then an hour later, Abg called me. He was soooooooo angry over the phone. Then after i smsed him Ansari's number, he smsed me back wif reali reali bad words. Isssh. I let Lulu read his smses. So not nice sounding.
It's so contradicting how Ansari sounded so calm and Abg was so mad. I told Abg i wanted to cry about the entire thing and he scolded me for crying cos it's not as if someone died. Sheeesh.
So when i told him that he neednt sound so harsh towards me, he softened up and said if the problem is solved, i will have to treat him to Secret Recipe's Chicken Cordon Bleu and Iced Chocolate with Whipped Cream. I knew he was eyeing my Chicken Cordon Bleu. Orang suruh rasa, tak nak. Malu konon. Malu taik kucing ah.
Then he ended his sms by saying: "Love u"
Muahaha. Muahaha. Kembang aku.
Ok lah. Dah penat type. Im feeling much better now. As compared to this evening. Hope i get good news from both Abg and Ansari... The 2 guys i love most...
I noe. I noe. Pics from the BSB Concert and Soundcheck. Dun ask la. The pictures have but im STILL WAITING for Liza to send them to me. Bleah. Semangat seh sms orang petang tadi saying she will upload the pics tonite...
Mane la Liza?? Mane??!! Habuk pun takde. Dis is wat happens when only 1 of us brings the digicam. No wait. When ONLY Liza brought her digicam...
Just now Ansari asked if i wana go cycling wif Nana on Monday. I was like... Waaat the....???? He knew i cldnt cycle la but he juz asked anyway. Can take the double bicycle. But luckily it so happened i smsed Shaik and she told me it's an NUS Muslim Society thingy and when i heard that i instantly decided not to go.
I have nothing against them la but i'll feel sooo out of place. Maybe Nana needs more people to go so she resorted to asking her cousins but... Noooooooo!!!!! I think even Ansari will feel weird. He went once i think and he said he felt so tired after that.
Hahahaha. Lemau.
U noe how sometimes people tend to talk loudly cos they think they are in a crowded place and nobody can hear them??
Me and Ansari were eating at Banquet and beside us there was this makcik and pakcik. Naturally one wld assume them to be husband and wife (which was proven wrong later on). Sooo we were happily eating when the pakcik got up and went to the drinks counter. He got back with a form in hand.
Sooo actuali he was helping the makcik to apply for the Banquet Card. If u dun alreadi noe, there is such a thing. For wat purpose i absolutely duno. It's certainly not for discounts when eating at Banquet outlets. Rewards card ah?? OK nvm.
And right at that point then we realized they weren't related. Cos the pakcik asked for her IC and me and Ansari nearly puked when we overheard them... It went something along the lines of:
"Ini IC saya. Awak jgn tgk la gambar kat situ. Time tu saya kurus..."
"Oh takpe..."
"Jgn terperanjat eh sebab org yg kat dlm gambar tu dgn org kat depan mata awak ni dah banyak lain..."
"Biase la kan. Time muda-muda dulu. Kita ni semua sekarang dah tua..."
"Ok nah..."
"Ohhh cantik manis juga awak dulu..."
And i seriously cant rmbr much about the rest of the conversation except that the makcik announced her house number and handphone number SUPER LOUDLY. I duno about u asll but i felt kinda disgusted. To me, they were flirting with each other. Bleah. Eww. I looked at Ansari. He looked at me. Den he smiled and still could ask me why. So i made a gesture with my eyes by moving them to the left and he nodded indicating that he got wat i mean. Goooodnesss.
U noe sometimes i duno whether Ansari is juz plain belo. Yday evening he smsed me while i was in the stadium...
"Amacam... U pergi airport tak semalam to welcome the Backstreet Boys" (so mcm Mat)
"U ingat i takde keje lain? Tak laaah. I tak gi airport. Eh i dah kat stadium tau..."
"Stadium? Buat pe kat sane? Tgk bola eh?" (and it's weird that Nora actuali asked me the SAME thing when i told her i was at the stadium. those 2 siblings...)
"Gaaaaawd. Kat Indoor Stadium laaah. Kan i dah bilang u i nak tgk their concert..." (yes i told him about it on Saturday)
"Oh ok. Have fun la. I actuali nak mandi" (eh nak mandi pun nak bilang?)
And when i told Nora that u noe wat she said?
"He was hinting at u to mandi sama dgn dia..."
*smacks forehead*
Ansari asked wat i was gona do when i get home. I told him i'll golek on my bed and read my book. Then he emphasized on the word golek. After that he said that my bed is playground.
Sounded so salah kan??
"Ur bed macam ur playground..."
"Playground??"
"Yes... playground... abih u golek-golek"
"Okaaaaayy..." (stare at him)
"Wat?!"
"Nothing la. I tak cakap apape..."
"I noe! Eh dun think dirty eh..."
"Waaaaaaattt??!!" (my eyes big-big)
"I noe wat ure thinking..." (cheeky smile)
"Apeee? I din say anything..."
"Sebab i cakap playground..." (grin)
"Ehhh pls eh. U yang have dirty thots sebab u brought it up first... Not me..."
"Cepat get those thots out of ur head now..." (cheeky smile)
Sigh. Ansari... Nora... Ni dua adik-beradik dah rosak. Rossssaaaaaaakkk.
Ansari told me his family will be gone to malaysia for the chinese new year holidays. So i was talking about it to Nora then she said:
"Yes. Semua pergi. So kan takde org kat rumah tau. Cuma my bro je. U blh dtg. U nak tido rumah i pun blh"
STOP IT
Gaaaaaaaaawd
STOP IT
Later im going to propose to Brian Thomas Littrell.
Im going to get down on one knee and with a rose in my hand, i'll ask him to marry me. He was the first guy that i had a crush on in primary school (eh actually i had a crush on this guy called Fadhli Haron).
And actuali, i rmbr giving him a note which said dis:
I Love You
You Love Me
I kentot,
U lari
Betul! Tak bedek! Gaaawd. The fat me gave such a note to the hensem Fadhli Haron. No wonder he got scared. Ok nvm.
But the fact remains that im still in love with Brian. Watched News 5 last night and when i saw the warm welcome at the airport, i was excited but yet disappointed cos i was secretly hoping that they wun be so popular now juz so that i can have Brian to myself.
Muahahaha
So Brian... will u take me as your wife? Im sure u can afford a 2nd wife... Ive been sooo in love with u since 11 and never has my love for u died. The fact that u are here in Singapore right now, further strengthens my love for u.
My heart beat beat so very the fast fast at the thought of seeing u later. Den we can have many many kids. Confirm anak semua lawa.
OK that was totally horrible English.
Anyways, a girl's gotta do wat a girl's gotta do. So im going to tell Brian that i love him and i still harbour hopes of marrying him up till this very moment...
Im sori Nora. If Brian accepts my proposal, u wun get me as ur sis-in-law. Im so so very sori.
*giggles*
As Abg drove along the expressway in the calm of the night, and the other 3 stooges were singing to themselves, he whispered to me:
"So what was your birthday wish?"
I was taken aback, surprised and totally didnt expect Abg to ask me that question. I turned to him with eyes as big as duck's eggs (exaggerating la) and said:
"I didnt make a birthday wish at all!!"
"How can u not make a birthday wish?!!"
"Bcos there wasnt any proper cake..."
"But it was ur birthday..."
"Uh-huh... But there wasnt any proper cake..."
"Ok when u get home, before u sleep, sit by your window, look up at the sky and the stars and make a wish..."
"It doesnt work that way u noe..."
"At least have faith... like me..."
"Like you??!!"
"Yes every night, i pray that my soulmate...i noe ive not met her...but whoever she is, i hope Allah protects her and keep her from harm's way and hopefully she's happy..."
I kept quiet after that bcos to me... what's the use in just praying and wishing if u dont show Allah how much u want something?? But u noe sometimes... the circumstances are such that... u can do nothing else but to just pray and hope and wish...
Tonight... on this star-less sky (actually it seems like it's going to rain)... im asking Allah to give me strength.
I miss Ansari very very much. I really do. We havent had much private time together lately. Like seriously totally private time whereby we just sit down and talk and ask after each other and update each other about our lives. I admit things have gotten pretty intensed lately, therefore i see the need for us to seriously sit down and talk face to face.
Shaikhah may say she misses Andhika but he is just an sms or phonecall away. He might not be able to meet her there and then in times of her need, but at least she gets to listen to his voice. She gets to talk to him. She gets to pour out her woes to him. She gets to share her joy with him. At least even if they cant meet today, there's always tomorrow.
But me?? I have to wait and wait patiently for Ansari's sms. I can sms him anytime but he cant reply on the spot. Heck. Sometimes i have to wait till a day or two till he replies. I cant call him cos all i'll get is his voicemail. And what do u expect me to do?? Cry over the damn phone??
(im sorry but im in a bratty mood)
I see couples walking hand in hand and instantly i'll miss having Ansari's hands holding onto mine
I see couples looking into each other's eyes lovingly and instantly i'll miss looking at Ansari's eyes
I see couples sitting side by side looking contented even without doing anything and instantly i'll miss having Ansari by my side
I miss doing all the couple-y things with Ansari
I miss his teasings
I miss him feeding me
I miss his irritating-ness
I miss the way he always tucks my hair into place
I miss resting my head on his shoulders
I miss the way he kisses me gently on my cheeks when im not looking
I miss the way i feel so secure in his arms
I miss having small petty arguments with him
Today marks exactly a month since he entered SISPEC. 5 more months to go and things will look slightly better.
Next Sunday is our 7 months anniversary and it feels sooo long since we did anything special. Just the 2 of us. It doesnt help that he has to do guard duty on Saturday night simply bcos it's going to be Chinese New Year and they dont have enough people to do guard duty. That means he will not be able to bookout next Saturday night.
Dont tell me that his NS will be over even before i know it. I know he will be done with NS but do any of u understand what I'm going through?? Do any of u seriously know what it feels like wanting to show someone how much u care for him, but no matter what u do, things just wont take a turn??
I cant turn back the hands of time, back to my birthday.
But im going to do one thing...
Right after this, I'm going to sit by my window and silently pray to Allah to give me the strength and the courage to just be there for Ansari. I certainly do not mind that he cant be there for me all the time cos it's certainly not his fault.
Just let me be there...
The guys who came...
My 2 Bodyguards... My Knight in Shining Armour, Urs Truly and Batman My Dark Knight...
The ever so pretty ladies...
Sori ladies i didnt get to mingle wif u all during the dinner...
The 3 Kukuz who are happily attached...
The one wif the gorgeous curls, the one who wore a dress, the one wif nice rebonded hair...
Liza... My Abg said u were garang... Hahaha...
Remember the 15th of EVERY month ok Neeta??
My dearie... My dearie... My dearie... I forgot to kiss u that day!!
Syikin... Dun say im cute animore la... I dah 21 tau... So not cute...
Psssst Nora... I think im in love wif YOU... Dun tell ur bro k?? Hehehe...
And how can i forget The One that im head over heels in love wif......... 
I reached home around 130am after which i showered, smsed Abg my thanks and good nite and wat have yous and smsed The Kukuz and i tossed and turned in bed. For a good 1 hour. Thennn i feel asleep and when i woke up, it was only 4am!! Urrrgghh!! So i continued tossing and turning till my parents left for work and i was smsing Nora at the same time. Hahaha. She said i was making her smile away in the bus ALONE and the other passengers probably thought she was mad.
Oh gaaawd. The both of us were so crappy. We actuali thought of ways to use Shaik's and Andhika's gift. Hohoho. Very funny tau. The things we thought of. Sampai kebaya and peluh pun came into the topic.
Then i went into the living room, took all my presents and opened them in my room.
Maybe i was excited at the thought of opening my presents, that was why i cldnt sleep. If u are wondering why i didnt bother to unwrap my presents last nite itself... Well i was reali exhausted. And i didnt want my parents coming into my room in the middle of the nite, kepo-ing about my presents.
Maybe i wanted to make myself suspense. Hahaha. Crrraaaaapp.
Atok brought me to Nora's Apparel. I told Atok i didnt want jubah tau. Pls. Im still young...
So he bought me this... A very nice blue long dress. 75 freaking bux... Bleeaah.
Last year for my birthday, i bought a long black dress from the same shop. So this year, again another dress from there. My long black dress was a size M. Sooo when i tried on my first dress yday, the lady gave me an XS size.
I stared at her incredulously thinking she muz be blind. Then she said it's cos im slim and tall. Woman... wait till u see my frenz who are TALLER. Sooo i tried a dress on thinking i wun fit in it. Confirm tersendat somewhere. Maybe around the thigh area. But surprise surprise!! I cld fit into an XS. No wait. Further alterations had to be made on the length AND they had to make it SMALLER for me. Sheeeesh.
So after trying on 7 pretty dresses... The lady juz kept giving me dresses to wear bcos she said i looked nice in them and she wanted the rest of the customers to see. So i was the model in the shop for an hour. Bleeeaah. And then all these ladies started touching me. Eeeek!! Actuali i cldnt decide. There was green, purple, brown, beige and blue. Finally i settled on that blue dress above. Thanks Atok!!
This one... Syikin and Lulu gave me. Hee hee. 
The Mike Gayle book that i wanted. Bessst. Got things to read...
And this is from Liza. Smth NOT from my wishlist. Not that i minded actuali. Heee.
See wat she wrote on the wrapper at the part i was supposed to tear off... Sheeesh.
And Teacher Liza is ALWAYS practical so she got me a Calendar!! Hee hee.
The next one is from Noreeeeeen. Muahaha.
My Maroon Pandan Leave Bag. Hohoho. Bessst. Bessst. It matches with most of my clothes. Hee hee. I have a new bag!! Lalala.
This one... From Neeta and Mindae. Waaah. Neeta AND Mindae. OK sori. Had to say it like that...
A card tumbled out of the bag and when i saw it, i thought Neeta was juz being notti.
The sticker on the wrapper. I still thought Neeta was juz playing around...
And so Neeta AND Mindae reali got me a bikini!! Gaaaaawwwd. I wonder wat Mindae was thinking when both of them bought this. A freaking bikini!! Maaaannn.
Kak Efah bought this for me... Smth from Bodyshop...
Strawberry Body Lotion and Strawberry Lippy. Hee hee. Im going to smell so sweet from now on (not that i dun usuali smell sweet). Hee hee. Sweeeeet!!
Mariam said a girl always needs her Perlini's...
Why not make it Swarovski the next time?? Hehe.
A lovely simple bracelet from Mariam. Hohoho. Sweet and simple. I LOIKE!!
Shaik and Andhika got me smth from IKEA but they put it in a Bodyshop bag. Waaat the...??
And seriously Waaaat The Hell??!! Hahaha. Very funny. Reali funny and cute. It's called Hong Bin Bao kan?? And wat does Hong Bin Bao mean?? Maaannn can somebody give me ideas wat to do wif it??
My little darling Nora bought me this...
My favourite Davidoff Coolwater perfume. Sweetness. Reali sweetness. I love u many-many la Nora. I doooooo!!
U see... When Nora asked me what perfume i use... i thought she was going to hint to Ansari to buy it for me. Hahaha. Serious. She did tell me she was going to get me smth NOT from my wishlist but i didnt think she wanted to get me my fave perfume!!
But then... while waiting for 14 at Bedok Interchange... Ansari sort of gave me clues as to wat he got me. So i asked him why didnt he buy me perfume instead?? It's a foolproof gift and Nora knows my fave perfume. Dennn he told me it's cos she alreadi bought me perfume so he cldnt buy.
Gaaaaaawwd. Spoiler!! Nora nanti marah ur bro tau. He went to spoil the surprise. Hohoho.
And last but not least... The gift Ansari bought me...
Levis jeans...
The latest Square Cut Jeans...
Seeeeeee...
And the price was... ahem... very nice...
He cldnt remove the tag for fear that the jeans wun fit me and we will have to have it exchanged. He told me when i try on the jeans, juz dun take a look at the tag. Ehhh maner boleh. It's juz basic human nature.
Actuali i saw the tag in the car alreadi. After Ansari got off, i took out the jeans. Then Nadeem and Abg sibuk-sibuk asked me the jeans cost how much. When i told them... they were so bloody envious sia!!
Have i left out anybody's gift?? Ohhh... Abg's... Haha. He said my gift will arrive either today or tmr. Whatever rocks ur boat la Abg. I'll be waiting tau. Sape suruh tak beli siang-siang??
Thank u all for the gifts. Reali reali thank u sooo much. And thank u for attending the dinner. I know i wasnt a good host, but having 16 people seated at one loooong table, it's hard to strike a conversation wif anybody.
Besides i had to make sure Abg was comfortable cos he didnt noe most of u. He wanted to talk to Syikin but she was so far away.
Oh Ansari told me that before i left and all of u were hugging me and i think Shaikhah kissed me and me and Syikin did a cheek to cheek kiss... Apparently Abg and Nadeem were so shocked by that. Hahaha. They actuali turned to look at each other looking very shocked. Then Ansari purposely said:
"Come guys... Let's hug..."
Cos he was standing in btwn the 2 of them so he put out his arms. Harharhar. Merepek Meraban.
After dropping Ansari off at Boon Lay MRT (of course we reached there in 20 mins flat bcos Abg was driving like a speed demon)... me, Nadeem and Abg didnt want to go home yet. So as Abg drove on the expressway (adhering to the speed limit this time)... we thought of places to go. Then Abg switched on this Nirvana song...
It's opening lyrics were:
"Raaaape me"
Serious. I kid u not!! And Nadeem... being Abg's gay partner for the evening, decided to sing the song out loud. Maaaaannn. Spoil the song only. I wanted to hear Kurt Cobain singing la Nadeeeem!!
As usual it was noisy in the car la. When Ansari was around, both of them were quiet. Malu la katakan. Sheeeesh. When Ansari got off... Waaaahhh!! They called each other names and kept laffing tau. Sikit-sikit ketawe. Talk abt smth also laff. Gaaawwddd.
"Eh Nadeem... Kau nak minum teh tarik kau kan? Cepat choose a place..."
"I duno sia. Where sia?"
"Anywhere la u Pakistani"
"Changi laaa"
"Go Changi for waaaaat??! U wana look at those bapoks right?"
"Ehhh can la. Sunday nite. Cmon la Erza"
"Ok ok. Which part of Changi?"
"That usual place la..."
"Noreen... u dun mind kan?"
"Anything. Bring me somewhere i have not gone to. Somewhere not easily accessible by public transport..."
But then Nadeem received a call and he had to go home. Bleeeah. Sniff. So sedih. It's always fun to have Nadeem around u noe. He is like 1 kancheong fella. Dun believe me... ask Shaik. She experienced it for the first time when Nadeem called her yday.
Shaikhah... u didnt give Abg ur number. Abg got ur number from Nadeem. And how Nadeem got ur number... that i certainly do not noe.
I teased Nadeem about Chocolate Banana. Then Ansari told Nadeem to share Banana Split wif Abg. Hahaha. Funneeehhh!! BANANA. So Nadeem told Abg that me and Ansari were being notti by teasing him. Eh u think we scared is it?? Hohoho.
And there was once, I asked Nadeem why he didnt say hello to Mariam first and he said he was waiting for Mariam to say hello to him first. Den i said:
"Nadeem cannot like that. Ure a guy. U muz say hello first"
"I shy sia..."
"Shy my asss. Where are ur balls mann??"
"I HAVE 2 BIG BALLS LA" (he said it sooo loudly in the car den he laughed)
Gaaaaaaaaawd
Soooo after Nadeem alighted... Abg called... Abg called... Hehe. Abg called Odi Cute Dimples. Hehe. Hehe. And so Abg and me went to Blk 815. Sat at the playground and waited for the other two 815 brudders to join us. Of course it was 930pm already and Abg had plans to bring me for supper but he was afraid my parents wld scold him and i told him to call my mom and talked to her and he was scared but then i forced him anyway and so he finally did and so he stopped worrying. Hohoho.
Me and Abg sat at the playground and talked for a good 30 mins. Yes we did. Reminiscing abt our childhood. Abt our family. The stuff that goes on at home. Abt studies. Abt life. Abt gals. Abt his recruits. Abt my future plans. And abt Ansari.
It was nice u noe. He called me old. 21 is old for a gal. Dah la siang hari he called me juz to say im an Andartu. But i agree la. For guys, even being 30 wun make a difference. He asked me if i felt any different now that im 21 cos when he turned 21, he didnt feel anything. When he actuali thought 21 is the age that he's finally an adult.
I told him i didnt feel any different. Actuali i said i feel my biological clock ticking. Hahaha. As in i told him i wana have kids and i noe i have to wait till i get married and i have to start saving up cos it's expensive to get married and i'll probably take a long time to save up and maybe by the time im 26, i will have juz enuff savings to get married but juz enuff isnt good enuff cos the cost of living here is expensive.
Thennn he said 26 is old for a woman to get married. And i agreed but the thing is... it's juz hard to get married early la. Dennn he said:
"26... old for u but not old for Ansari..."
"Haha. Ya. 26 isnt old for a guy. It's juz right..."
"U and Ansari... will last..."
"Huh?? Is that a qn or a statement?"
"A statement from me..."
"Wat made u say so?"
"Cos i can see it... He's a gd guy..."
"Yeah i noe. He is..."
"So dun do anything stupid..."
"Like wat?"
"Like hurt him..."
"As if i wld!!"
"Well im juz telling u only..."
"Dun add to the pressure..."
"Wat pressure??"
"Hmmm... the fact that i noe his cousins and most ppl keep saying we will last... im pressurized by that..."
"I see..."
"So pls. Dun add on to it..."
"But i think u guys will make it..."
"I hope so. I certainly hope so..."
"Dun wori..."
"Im not worried. It's juz that i dun wana disappoint anyone if things dun go well... and... i juz feel me and Ansari have a loooooong way to go before we decide on anything..."
"Take ur time..."
"Yeah we will. After he's done wif NS and his studies. And after im done wif mine..."
So we talked some more. For the first time, i told Abg how Ansari asked me to be his gf. Haha. All this while, Abg didnt noe. SO when i told him... he actuali said he like Ansari's style. Oh gaaaaaawd. Ape sahaje la. Merepek meraban.
Thennn one 815 brudder came down. A short while later, Odi came down. From far i knew it was him already. Cute-ness. Hahaha. Odi smiled (goodness those 2 deep dimples!!) and said Hi to me. Cair.
We walked to the car. Of course i was made to sit in front. Then the backseat was filled wif my presents. Odi said:
"Waaah. Shopping nampak..."
"Ehh no. Those are my birthday presents..."
"Oh reali?? Happy Birthday!!" (wif a senyuman so manis i almost fainted)
"Thank you..." (i smiled back)
"Can i have some? Hehe"
We moved the presents into the car boot and off we went to send sick Odi to CGH. He needed to get MC for his IPPT so yeah. Abg drove him to A&E (macam sakit tenat). Haha. Thennn Abg told Odi to call Abg when he's done and he wld pick him up. So Odi said Bye. I thought he said Bye to his frenz so i diam. Thennnnnnnn... And then cos he was seated behind me, he actuali leaned forward and said another Goodbye to me.
Aiiiiyyyyoooooooooohhh!! So i turned and said Bye. Then when he got off the car, he purposely slammed the door hard. Then he turned, looked at me (im serious. he looked at me) and smiled again. Cair. And i smiled back la. Tak baikkan tak balas senyuman orang??
After that... Abg turned to me and he kept making all these weird gestures wif his face. Serious. Tak bedek. And he was whispering God noes wat to me. But of course i suspected it had smth to do wif Odi la. Cos his other fren was at the back and he didnt want him to hear i think. Gaaaaaawwd.
Abg went to top-up petrol. And he told me to get out of the car and follow him. Waaat the.......?? As if anything will happen in the car. And then u noe wat?? Abg asked:
"So..... how??"
"How wat?" (has my Abg gone bonkers or smth?)
"U noe... Odi..."
"U do noe i find him cute..."
"Yeah he is..."
"OK so fine ive got a crush on him. Juz a harmless crush..."
"I noticed u smiling away in the car after he got off..."
"I WASNT!!"
"U WERE!!"
"Noooo!! Ur mata potek. U dun have perfect eyesight... Ur eyes muz be playing tricks on u..."
"Eh hello... u were seated beside me..."
"And ya i was looking out the window most of the time..."
"Ya la but i can still see u were smiling..."
"Oiii!! U were supposed to concentrate on the road..."
"But i cld see u smiling..."
"Hurhur"
"And u shld have seen the way u talked to him..."
"WAAAAAT???!!"
"So malu-malu..."
"NO"
"Yes. So gentle. So girlish"
"Ok fine. So??"
"So........"
"So wat? Im attached..."
"Yeah. Too bad huh??"
"Yeah. Dammit"
"Hahaha. He's nice u noe..."
"Yeah i can tell..."
"Why muz u be attached??!"
"Eh dekni..."
"Hahaha. Is Odi cuter than Kassim then?"
"Duh!! Eh ckp pasal Kassim pulak"
"Cehhh. Duh seh"
"True waaat..."
"Hahaha. Tak padan..."
"Oh well. Eyecandy for me je la. Im happily attached" (smiles)
Then we went to Tampines MRT to pick up another fren. Thennn Abg called Odi to ask if he was done. Thennn i heard Odi pretending to cough. Harharhar. Very kaklar i tell u. Super funny. I mean he was sick la. Fever, cough, headache but he pretended to cough so burukly over the phone, everybody juz laughed.
Sooooo we picked Odi up from CGH. Then we had to go to my aunt's place at Pasir Ris. One of the guys asked:
"Erza. Kau nak pergi mane ni?"
"Hantar adik sedare aku gi Pasir Ris jap. Amik barang"
"Ahh?? Kakak kau nak pergi Paris?"
"Sejak bile aku ade Kakak??!! Aku cakap... AKU NAK PERGI PASIR RIS SEKEJAP. AMIK BARANG KAT RUMAH MAKCIK AKU"
Funny la. We stopped at a traffic light. Then this apek taxi beside us looked very sad tau. Reali. So super sad. Like he had a lot of problems. Then Odi wind down the window and exclaimed to the rest of the car that the apek looked sad. Then he said dis:
"Yg sudah tu sudah la Pek. Jgn fikir-fikir"
Goooodnesss. Funny u noe. The apek may not have heard him but im sure he noticed Odi looking at him. Dennn Odi told all of us to looooook at the apek. Isssh. So malu tau. Reali. Gaaaaawd. Kesian the apek.
After that, we went to Bukit Timah. Had supper at Al-Ahzar. On the way there, everybody made jokes. Very funny. Very nice. We talked about cars. Bikes. TV shows. Movies. Then when the same Nirvana song came up, EVERYBODY laughed. Gaaaawd. 4 guys laffing away. Goooooodnessss. I think there's some private joke i didnt noe of.
So we reached Al-Ahzar. Die-die had to sit beside Abg. Bluuuuuek. I didnt want to eat anything heavy u noe. It was like already 1130pm and i was afraid i wld become fat. Harharhar. Of course Abg said i wasnt fat at all. Thank u la Abg. I noe u were dying to stuff me wif food.
So i asked the boys for recommendations. They wanted to eat crab. My gawd. Of all things. Merepek meraban. Ummm so in the end all of us had maggi goreng, mee goreng pattaya, prata kaya, teh tarik and teh cino. Hohoho. They made fun of all the mamaks who took orders.
There was a lembut mamak. Another one walked wif so much gusto and swung his arms around (amazing jugak eh the food and drinks he carried didnt spill). Another one kept smiling at us (and the boys suspected it was cos of Odi and his dimples). Another one so garang. And another one kept waving at us. Betol tak bedek. Each time he walked past our table, he smiled, nodded and waved. And again they told Odi to wink and smile at him. Gaaaaaawwwd. Tak baik.
While we waited for our food, Abg finally gave formal introductions.
"OK the one in front of u is Ayim, that one is Acap and of course that one u alreadi noe is Odi"
"Hello..." (i smiled at them)
"And the one beside u is Abg Bubu" (Ayim said that and again i suspect it was a private joke)
"Eh Abg... u intro them den u tak tell dem my name??"
"A'ah la kau Za. Ape sahaje tau" (again Ayim talked)
"Haha. Ok ini Azreen. Eh tak tak. Panggil dia Noreen"
So we talked and laughed and ate. Reali nice tau. Abg asked if the food was to my liking and all. Then he asked if ive been to Niggy's Cheese Prata Shop at Kent Ridge. Oh of course!! Of course Abg!! I lurrrrve their Chicken Cheese Murtabak. Then we talked about eating places and Abg said when he's free he'll bring me together wif the boys. Hohoho.
And then Abg asked me who i was smsing. Was it Ansari. I said Ansari dah tido and i was replying to Nadeem's smses. Then Abg got concerned and asked if we sms every nite. And i told him no la. When the need arises. Not often already. Then Abg took my hp and smsed Nadeem duno wat. The next thing i noe, Nadeem replied telling me to stop it. So i asked Abg wat did he sms Nadeem and Abg said he scolded him as usual. Pakistani shit all that. So i told Nadeem it was Abg who smsed and it wasnt me cos i wldnt call him that. Thennn Nadeem replied wif some bad words and told me to let Abg read. Gaaaaaawd. Childish. It went on for several smses and i had to tell them to stop.
Thennn we realized the place sold Teh Pakistani. Harharhar. Shld have ordered that instead. Then i told Abg we shld bring Nadeem along the next time and he orders Teh Pakistani and we order Melayu style punye teh. Wat Melayu style also i duno.
Then i leaned back against the chair. On Abg's arms and he asked if i was tired. He said i muz be sleepy alreadi. He told me to wait a while longer and we will be home. Hee hee.
Packed Roti John for my mom. Abg paid for my share. Thennn when we were about to leave and i wanted to carry the plastic bag of roti john, Odi offered to carry it for me. I declined la. Paiseh. My mom's Roti John waaat. Then he smiled and said it was ok. Thennn Abg came along and grabbed it and said he wld carry it. Hahaha. I told Abg to let me carry it instead but he insisted to carry it and told me to walk on the pavement and not on the road. Dangerous.
He asked if i wanted to drive and i said no. Issssh. Pls. Dah malam. Anyway God noes wat time we wld reach home if i drive.
The journey home was... well nice. It wasnt quiet nor rowdy. The flow of the conversation was good. Funny funny guys. Then Odi started singing. Gaaaawwwd. Dah sakit tu diam je la. Then he ate his medicine. After that again he wind down the window, stuck his spoon out and using the water from his water bottle, he washed his spoon. All this while Abg was driving. Gooooodnessss.
Sooo reached my house already. Abg and me got off. As i was about to get out of the car, the 3 boys said goodbye and goodnight. I turned, smiled and said bye. Then u noe when u get out of the car, u will somehow glance towards the back right? Soooo i turned and there Odi was. Ok like duh!! He was seated behind me.
And again he smiled. Then he got off the car too and wished me Happy Birthday for the 2nd time last nite. Then he smiled (he reali shld stop it cos i almost wanted to faint) and said goodnight. So he moved to the front passenger seat. Then i went behind to take out all my gifts from the car boot. Thennn before Abg and me walked down the stairs... All 3 guys somehow popped their heads out of the window and said bye again.
Hahaha. So kaklar la. Reali. By far... last nite's trio was the nicest out of the 815 brudders. Not that i've met all of them anyway.
So Abg walked me up. He wanted to talk to my parents but they were asleep so again he apologized for the delay in his birthday present for me and one last birthday wish from Abg.
*sweetness*
(Im sori i babbled so much in dis post. Bleah)
I seriously shld be asleep right now cos i have a check-up later at 8am. It's not that im not sleepy. I noe that if i were to put my head on my pillow, i'll drift off to la-la land in a matter of seconds.
I guess i have been doing too much thinking lately...
There's a reason for everything. Pokok tidak akan bergoyang jika tiada angin (is that the right peribahasa? the last time i took malay was in sec 4).
I had my reasons for doing what i did. I did that simply because... i let my heart rule over me. When it comes to certain things... certain aspects of my life, i let my heart make the decision. Thankfully it's not a major aspect of my life and it doesnt occur often. Trust me. When i make decisions using my heart, most of the time i'll regret doing it.
I've always made decisions using my head. I will try and weigh the issue. See the rationale in things. Then at the end of the day, i'll just let the matter rest because im not the type who makes a big hoo-ha out of things.
So recently... i did smth. I just went along with what my heart told me without even for a second consulting my head. Right at that moment when that thing was said to me although i knew it wasnt meant that way, i came to a decision. Just like that. I didnt even bother to sit down, take a breather and think properly. Using my head.
So did that decision cost me anything? That is smth i shall keep to myself. If u really wana noe, then well ask me urself.
As i sat thinking... i realized the decision i came to wasnt a fair one. And then i thought deeper. About other stuff. All those minute details combined and became a bigger picture and... truth to be told... i got scared. I felt the pressure.
I wish i can noe wat is in store for me
I wish i can see the future
I wish i can noe if the sacrifices im making are right now are gona be worth it
I wish i can noe everything
But being humans... being a weak Human... of course i do not have such abilities. If i do, then where's the thrill in living right? Where's the thrill in living life to the fullest? Where's the thrill in treasuring whatever i have right now right?
I noe my post has been pretty vague. All of u can only see the big picture. "Yes Azreen made a decision using her heart and she seems troubled by it".
Blogging about this isnt exactly making me feel better. Bcos the person that this post is intended for... probably wun figure it out. I still feel as if im keeping a huge secret inside of me. There's this heavy feeling in my heart.
I can safely tell u that... only one particular decision that i came to using my heart hasnt been a regret for me at all. That is saying "Yes" to Ansari. Other than that i think i shld stick to making decisions using my head.
Bleeeeeeeaaaah. Im really not feeling any better about it. Gossssh. And it's funny how ive been thinking about this serious issue but those notti cheeky thots are still stuck in my head.
Notti notti Az...
U noe what? I shldnt mull over it anymore. It's driving me nutz and i think i shld write it in a letter and explain myself to that particular person. So for now i shld click the "Publish Post" button and log off from MSN, switch off the laptop and continue with those notti cheeky thots of mine.
Notti cheeky thots at this time of the night?? Ohhh i soooooo welcome them with open arms...
Im reading a book by Louise Harwood. It's called Calling On Lily.
It's an innocent book. Really. I mean besides the occasional description of kissing scenes (which is by the way nothing erotic or whatsover), the storyline is sweet. So very sweet.
Trust me. I dun read any of those disgusting romance novels. They turn me off. Eww-ness.
I finally get to see some Sun today. Been waking up and not knowing whether it's night or day. The weather has been so gloomy for the past few days. Even today, with the Sun in sight, i still feel cold. So i read my book beneath the comfort of my comforter (pardon the pun).
And somehow... as i was reading and smiling to myself... my mind wandered. As much as i tried to stop them from wandering... i reali was on the losing end.
Ansari has been a notti boy. A very very notti boy as of late. And it doesnt help that he's turned 21 and im turning 21 in 2 days and... and... and well i've got a very notti boyfren who is trying to corrupt my innocent mind.
Seriously. What is in an age? Nothing right? Maybe im just excited that turning 21 means im legally an adult. Well not in my parents eyes i presume but got to admit that there are certain things that i'll be allowed to do. I can make certain decisions myself.
What decisions i so do not know.
I think im babbling. I reali am.
And im having thoughts... Seriously notti thoughts at this time of the day.
I wish i can cuddle up to Ansari right at this moment. I miss him so very much.
And missing him loads is certainly encouraging my imagination to think of all sorts of things.
Notti notti Azreen. Get those notti thoughts out of your head.
I was already tired and cold and all i wanted was to snuggle up under my comforter last nite. Then i got an sms from Abg Erza. U see earlier during the day he called while i was teaching tuition. Cldnt answer his call so i smsed him.
It turned out he logged into my angelfire account and already uploaded a song but he didnt noe how to change the song code on his Friendster account. I gave him specific instructions as to what to do and then... he deleted some other parts of the html code. Bleah. Men. Ok no. BOYS. So i smsed him dis:
"Selenge-ness. Tgn gatal. Org suruh delete lain, lain pulak yg dia delete. Urgh!!"
Den his reply was:
"Tgn gatal kat keyboard takpe. Jgn tgn gatal dgn anak dara org"
*smacks forehead*
I told him that i wld help him change the code when i get home. Then he asked what time i wld be home. I said 1030pm but then last nite it was raining and when i reached my house bus-stop, i decided to... well play in the rain. Ok not like seriously play in the rain and prance around but yeah i juz walked in the rain. Calmly. Haha. Once in a while it's nice to let urself get wet. I cld have easily asked my mom to come down wif the umbrella but i didnt. So i got home a bit later than 1030pm la.
Thus i thought it wld be wasted to not snuggle up and have an early night. I was smsing Nora and smiling away to myself when Abg smsed me dis:
"U said u wanted to help. Are u home already?"
"Yeah im home. Ure online huh?"
"Yes and im waiting..."
Urrrrrgggghhhh!! So i had to reach for the laptop by the side of my bed and switched it on. He knew i was irritated. Cos he prompted me wif "Hi" and i told him not to disturb me. And thennnn... hahaha... And thennnnn he put one rose icon. I told him i didnt want that. Then he put one smiley face and another one of those kissing smilies beside the smiley face. So cute. I smiled but i still was irritated so i told him to go away. Then he put a sad face. So funny la.
He actuali uploaded an m4a file. Gaaaaaaawwwwd. Kan dah cakap ONLY mp3 files. So belo. Then he told me to wait while he uploaded another song. Fine i didnt mind waiting but i wasnt in the mood to chat. Thennn he started chatting. Bleeeaaah. And he asked me what time i reached home.
Wanna report to Ansari is it??
So kotek. Ansari and Abg are so kotek. I'll elaborate about this later.
So after i uploaded the song onto his Friendster account, he thanked me and put the same smiley and kissing icon. So i asked him if that was all i was gonna get for helping him upload a song. Then he said dis:
"U want more? Then u will have to wait for Sunday, birthday gal..."
Hohoho. Yes i want more. But more wat?? Kisses from u eh Abg?? (somebody shld smack me)
On Hari Raya Haji Eve which was also Ansari's birthday, me and Abg picked him up from Jurong Point. We cldnt pick him up outside Pasir Laba Camp cos transportation was already provided for them to Boon Lay MRT. It was a last minute thingy bcos earlier during the day Ansari smsed me to tell me that he cld only book-out at 10pm and it was too late for me to wait for him. And so. I was. DESPERATE. Heh.
I grabbed my hp and smsed Abg dis:
"I need ur help. I need ur help. I need ur help!!!!!!!!"
"Yes?"
"Do u get to use the car tonite?"
"Not sure... Y?"
"Cos Ansari books out at 10pm n ive not seen him for a while n it's his bday today n i feel like doing smth nice for him cos i noe he's been feeling down lately"
"Alrite i'll help u. We go pick him up together"
Can u imagine how BEEEEEEEG my eyes went when i read Abg's reply? They went so beeeeeeg and round and i was so over the moon i actuali told Abg i love him. Hahaha. Then i called Shaikhah and smsed Nora. Hohoho.
After maghrib prayers, went to eat at Macs wif Shaikhah and then went to town to get Ansari's present. I bought him Davidoff Silver Shadow. His Hugo Boss perfume was running out but i didnt noe whether i shld stick to the same old one or get him a new perfume. So in the end i settled for Davidoff Silver Shadow cos i fell in love wif the scent and... And... I will have more reasons to smell Ansari. Hehehe.
After that i dropped at Bugis and waited for Abg to pick me up. Hee hee.
Of course when i got into the car, Abg asked:
"Kenape Shaikhah tak ikut skali? Abg blh hantar dia balik..."
"Hmm... Entah. She went home already. Besides i didnt ask... Heh..."
"If she ikut, then she can sit in front then u and Ansari sit behind..."
"Haha. Takpe la. Later i get Ansari to sit in front..."
He went at 120km/h. Oh yesss he did. But not before calling his fren who was in Traffic Police to ask if PIE had any operations going on. Bleah. I totally hate sitting in front wif Abg. Reali. Seeing the metre go up from the corner of my eye is scary. And he changes lanes juz like that. All the time.
We reached Jurong Point. I wanted to get out of the car to look for Ansari when Abg said dis:
"Tonight i'll be ur chauffeur..."
"Huh??"
"Yes. Later u and Ansari sit at the back..."
"Eh tak baik. Then ure in front alone..."
"Takpe. Juz for tonite. But NO HANKY PANKY AT THE BACK"
"Gaaawd. We dun get up to that la. Pls. Takpe. I get Ansari to sit in front wif u"
Then i saw Ansari. In his green polo tee and jeans all tucked in. Hahaha. Selenge-ness. Reali. Selenge habis!! So selenge but cute!! Yaaaa. My gawd. But i told him to tuck out his tee la. Im not used to seeing his tee nicely tucked in.
It was only the 2nd time that Abg and Ansari met and it was their 1st proper real conversation. Im surprised they got along quite well. No wait. Very well. I was at the back feeling left out bcos they talked about army. Sooo i thot what the heck and decided to join in their conversation (altho 3/4 of the army shit i still tak faham)
The only time u heard me talking was:
"Ahh yes yes. Bedok Camp. Get posted there"
"Ehh dun become officer. Nanti u takde time for me"
"Ehh jgn sign-on. I tak nak u jadi full-time army officer"
"Oiii!! TAK BOLEH SIGN-ON. After NS go further ur studies"
"Ahh yes yes. Be like Abg. 3SIR. Den almost every evening blh balik"
"OIII!! I tak kasi u sign-on. Ure not supposed to like the army" (to this i got a glare from Abg)
Ehhh Abg... u might LOVE the army but dun make my bf be like u eh. Pls. I want him to turn out normal tau. Then Abg still had the cheek to tell me that i muz see where Ansari's interests are. If he likes to organize operations then work towards 3SIR. If he wants to slack, then become a Sergeant at BMTC School at Tekong (ewww that sick place). If he wants to be an Officer then work harder.
Urrrggghhhh!! I was on the losing end so in my desperate bid to change the topic i told Abg that he can bring Ansari to watch R(A) shows already. Then Ansari declined. Dah tu he told Abg to bring ME bcos im so innocent. Abg juz laughed away as i protested that i wanted to continue being nice and innocent and sweet. Dun corrupt my mind (which is alreadi corrupted actuali). Then Ansari turned, looked at me and patted my head as if i was some budak kecik. URRRGGGHHHH!!
Abg went as fast as 130km/h. Ohhh yes he did. He went in and out of lanes. Of course Ansari liked it but i didnt. I told Abg that my parents trust him sooo he shld be a safe driver. Bleeeeaaah.
And thennn Abg started lecturing me abt how its not safe for gals to be out so late at nite. He was HINTING at me. My gaaaaawd. Den Ansari pun sekaki tau. The both of them expect me to be home by 10pm. Ehhhh mane boleh. 10pm is like early pe. My parents dun even set curfews for me. If by 11pm im not home then they will call la. If not ok pe. Besides i was wif Abg waaaaat.
But 2 against 1. In the end Ansari made me promise to be home by 1030pm. When there's nobody to send me home. Bleeeeaaaahhh. Koteks all of u.
I told Abg to send Ansari home first becos there was no way im gona let the 2 of them sit in the car and perhaps gossip abt me. Eww. Pls. NO. Then Abg called his fren who lived near Ansari's. Sooo Abg told Ansari that after he dropped him off, he wld need to meet his fren which meant i had to follow and then he wld send me home.
Ehhhhh ape niiiiiii?? Itu pun kene bilang Ansari ke? Abg said it's cos Ansari's my bf. Yaaaaa but im wif my own cousin pe. Goodnessssss. Memang nak kene sepak.
But then Abg changed his mind and told me to drop off wif Ansari and spend some time wif him and to call him when im done. Awwww. So sweeeet. So Ansari and me talked at the void deck and around 1130 i called Abg to pick me up. Hee hee.
We went to isi minyak before sending me home. Then Abg asked me:
"U wana noe what my favourite love song is?"
"Uh-huh..."
"My ultimate fave love song..."
"U have it in the car?"
"Yeah i do..."
"Ok... play it..."
"My frenz say im weird. Listen to the lyrics and tell me..."
Sooo Abg drove at 60km/h. Hahaha. Cos he wanted me to listen to the entire song. If he had sped, i wldnt be able to listen to the whole song. I have to say..... Yeah his choice of love song is weird. Like seriously reali weird. Actuali it made me uncomfortable la. But i juz listened anyway.
But the player in the car is kinda spoilt la. If the car hits any bumpy stuff on the road, the cd player will stop. Sooo before i got off the car i said to Abg:
"Thank u so much for tonite. It meant a lot to me. Heee. See u on Sunday tau. And... LISTEN TO WARNA SUDAH LA"
I cant believe... Abg actuali likes gals in pink and if the girl's parents impose curfew, he will like it even more. Weird.
Then the other day... for no rhyme or reason Abg said dis to me:
"Noreen... in the future when ure married and im not, i can imagine me and ansari sitting together and chatting away just like my dad and ur dad..."
Okkkaaaayyy. Me getting married is fine. But why wldnt Abg get married? And why muz it be Ansari's name in the conversation??
*double smacks forehead*
I mean im glad la that Abg thinks Ansari and me will go far but... i juz dun like it when people say such things to me. I dun wana junx anything. U get wat i mean?
I miss my Davidoff Cool Water perfume... Can someone get it for me please??
Remember how we first met on 12th April 2005 and u shook my hands?
I felt smth there...
Remember how 1 day Toonie went over to your house and she casually asked u ur opinion about me?
Because at that point she knew i liked u...
Remember that u told Toonie that u found me pretty but cos i was bz talking to Lulu u didnt get a chance to get to noe me better?
Because u made me nervous...
Remember our 1st chat on MSN and i "taught" u how to be a jedi and u played along wif my crap?
I started to reali reali like u...
Remember the 2nd time that we chatted on MSN and u told me u found me Beautiful?
I was over the moon...
Remember when we 1st exchanged numbers and u smsed me dis:
"1+1=2 eyes searching 4u
4+1=5 senses missing u
12+12=24 hrs thinking abt u
3+4= 7 days in a week i care 4u
1+11=12 mths I Pray 4u... Take Care...
That 1 and only sms from u made me happy...
Remember the first time u sent me a proper sms and started it wif "Hey Beautiful..."?
U made my heart smile...
Remember when u went away to Terengganu and i was anxious whether u have returned home or not and u smsed me:
"Dear Catwoman, Batman dah balik"
I jumped for joy...
Remember when i smsed u as soon as i touched down in Singapore from Bangkok?
U were the 1st person i smsed... Not any of The Kukuz...
Remember u asked me:
"Eh u rase Catwoman rindu Batman tak? Banyak mat kotai pulak tu kat Bangkok?"
I knew u liked me even without u saying it...
Remember when we 1st sat next to each other while watching Batman Begins?
Again i felt very nervous...
Remember when u first held my hands after we watched A Lot Like Love?
I felt this warm, fluttery feeling in my stomache... I had to look away and smile to myself...
Remember on 29th June 2005 u asked me to be ur Catwoman?
"Can i ask u smth? Will u be My Catwoman?"
I felt the Earth stopped spinning... I felt as if only u and me existed in this world...
Remember when Toonie talked to u and u told her that u were serious abt this relationship?
I felt reali assured...
Remember we went for TPJC's Manifestasi on our 1st month anniversary and for supper wif ur cousins after that?
I felt so much closer to u...
Remember when we sat at the breakwaters at Pasir Ris Beach and u asked me wat i smsed Toonie?
I felt how much u wanted to be a part of my life...
Remember when i told u wat i smsed Toonie:
"I hope that this is it. The ultimate. Can Ansari give me wat i want? Will he be The One?"
I started to fall for u cos u didnt run away... U didnt get scared... Instead u assured me...
Remember wat u told me when we sat by East Coast Beach:
"When im done wif NS, i hope u will still be there for me..."
Yes i will...
Remember when u waited for me outside Paragon for 3 whole hours?
I felt so bad but ur perseverance reali made me fall for u...
Remember how ur hp got spoilt after we went to Escape Theme Park and u laughed when i panicked after not hearing from u for 1 week?
Because it killed me not hearing from u at all...
Remember on the eve that u had to go for NS and my parents found out about us?
I was reali scared that they wld make me leave u...
Remember what u told me when i was worried that my parents wld make me leave u:
"Takpe la ini semua cubaan"
"Yes no matter wat happens we'll make it work"
Right there and then i knew I Love You...
Remember when u talked to me before u had to enlist for NS and i cried silently?
Because i cldnt bear to see u leave...
Remember that one last sms u sent me before u enlisted:
"I'll really miss u Beautiful. 3 wks je k? I'll try to sms u. 3 wks je"
I felt myself crumble cos i didnt noe how i was going to cope for 3 weeks...
Remember the 1st time ever u smsed me on 11th September 2005 from Tekong:
"Hey Beautiful.. tgh buat pe tu?"
"U said u were falling for me and i just want u to noe that i reali miss u"
That was the happiest i've been ever since u enlisted on 8th September 2005...
Remember u smsed me at 7am on 17th September 2005 telling me that u had 6 days more till u book out?
I was simply happy because i got to see u after 2 weeks instead of 3 weeks...
Remember when u first booked out and we went to watch The Longest Yard on 23rd September 2005?
It broke my heart to see u looking so thin and tired but nothing else mattered as long as i got to spend time wif u...
Remember when we buka puase together on 15th October 2005?
It meant a lot to me that u agreed to come despite feeling very tired...
Remember the next day i asked u how much u liked me and u said:
"I like u so much that someday i want to make u my wife"
Silently in my heart i said yes to what u told me...
Remember i told u how much i wanted the teddy bear and u smsed me:
"Anak org kaya takde la... my beautiful catwoman yg nak so kene beli la"
I was very touched...
Remember how u told me my macroons tak sedap?
It didnt matter cos i noe u didnt mean it...
Remember how i jokingly asked for duit raya and u agreed to give me?
That was very cute of u...
Remember i told u my relatives called me Siti Nurhaliza during raya and u said ure Brad Pitt?
That made me smile...
Remember our 1st jalan raya together on 21st November 2005?
I felt that there will be more jalan raya to come for us in the future...
Remember how i was very quiet at ur house during raya?
Cos i didnt want ur mom to have a bad impression of me...
Remember how u were dying to noe who ur mom found the prettiest and u asked me to ask ur Sis?
It didnt matter what ur mom's opinion was as long as i noe u love me...
Remember what u told me when i asked u wat u wld do if ur mom asks abt me:
"K la nanti i bilang yg u ni bakal menantu k?"
Those words meant sooo much to me...
Remember when i got reali angry at u and gave u the silent treatment?
Because i let my pride got in the way and refused to tell u that i was reali worried that u didnt sms me...
Remember when u got angry at me for that cos i cldnt decide whether u were forgiven or not?
I was at a loss when i didnt hear from u for an entire week...
Remember when u finally passed out and i called u while i was on the way home?
Because i was estatic... U had 10 days off and we cld finally spend quality time together...
Remember the 1st time we went to Sentosa?
It felt good having u all to myself...
Remember u wanting to show me the 3 stars?
I thought that was sweet of u...
Remember i asked u out for dinner and u were being so mean?
U hurt me then but it didnt matter cos i still love u...
Remember when i cried on ur shoulders on the mrt platform?
Because no matter how much u hurt me, i noe only u can make me feel better...
Remember when Toonie called u and u felt as if u have been a very lousy bf?
Everybody needs time to learn...
Remember when u came over to my place and we talked and i cried in front of u again?
Because i was so close to losing u and i didnt want that...
Remember when u had to book-in to SISPEC for the 1st time and i told u not to go and juz hide in my pocket?
Because i knew i wld miss u so very much...
Remember on ur 2nd day of SISPEC u smsed me telling me that u miss me?
I felt the same but i cldnt bring myself to say it because i didnt want u to feel bad that ure in camp and u cant be around for me...
Remember on ur 2nd day if SISPEC u smsed me:
"I have a very understanding gf. Ur baik, lawa, manje, baik hati, lemah lembut, penyayang.."
"Betul i rindu u. Tak bedek. Sampai lari 2.4km pun i ingat u. Mcm motivation cos dis time my timing improved"
It brought me to tears...
Remember ur reply when i told u to think of me waiting for u at the finishing line so that u can complete ur 2.4km faster:
"Blh kalau u naked kat finishing line lagi cepat. Flash pun kalah"
I knew u needed me to be there for u...
Remember when u booked out on Xmas Eve and i action tak nak keluar dgn u on Xmas?
Because i wanted to be a brat and secretly hoped u wld ask me again...
Remember we were watching Ocean's Twelve in our own houses and u sent me a string of flirty smses?
I reali liked that...
Remember when u told me that u suke me je? Yg u suke i banyak-banyak? Yg u sayang i many-many?
I thought our relationship was stronger than ever...
Remember when i asked u if u have left anything behind before u went back to camp and u said:
"Oh yes... U"
Then take me to camp wif u...
Do u remember all that?
I did
I do
And I will
Because when it comes to u...
The memories are too wonderful to be forgotten...
The memories are too precious to be chucked aside like some unwanted trash...
Because when it comes to u...
I will remember every single detail...
I will treasure every single bit...
Do u remember me telling u that i dun love u?
Do u remember me telling u that u dun mean anything to me?
Do u remember me telling u that i hate u?
Do u remember me telling u that ure the most horrible person on Earth?
Do u remember me telling u that i dun care about u?
Do u remember me telling u that i dun want to continue wif the relationship?
Do u?
I noe u dun. Cos i've never said all that.
And i never will...
And sooo i accompanied Noreen to the airport to send Eusof off. Sheeeesh. Eusof. I accompanied Noreen and Shaikhah accompanied me. Like some chain thingy. Hahaha. There was Me, Shaikhah, Noreen, Nadiah and Fariheen.
Our evening turned out to be very very fun though... Wana noe how fun?? Feast ur eyes on the pics...
I passed Eusof my cam and i duno waaaaaat the hell he was thinking. Dah la candid shots. Jauh pulak tu...
Hey!! Hey!! Hey!! Rahman was going to NZ wif Eusof tooo. Same camp i guess. Mann i duno all this army shit... Rahman looking gooooood in pink...
When they got bored waiting for the skytrain...
We got bored in the skytrain... Short trip pun masih boleh bergambar...
While we waited for the MRT at Changi Airport... I lurve these 2 shots...
And thennnnnn when we got ON the MRT...
Love dis shot
The Mat n Minah pose is baaaccckk!! Check-out the ass behind me...
And so we finally reached Simpang Bedok...
I like this pic...
The kebab so faaat. Kalah Kebab JLo nye size...
Teh tarik, Ice Mocha wif Cream, Horlicks Godzilla
Otak-otak
My Black Pepper Beef Horfun
Shaikhah's Mee Hailam
Noreen's Nasi Pattaya
When Noreen gets hold of the camera...
Dessert... Chocolate Tissue Prata wif 3 scoops of ice cream and mango and strawberry sauce... Yummmmmmyyyyyy... And super duper cheeeeeaaap!!
While we were in 31 on the way back to Tampines... Ppl probably thought we were maaad...
The magazine junkie
Outside the Levi's store at TM trying to take a few more shots before we went home...
There u go. We took a grand total of 88 pics but of course i didnt put everything up here la. Hehe.
"Rahman... I WANT A SHEEP FROM NZ. Post Hari Raya Haji gift. Hehe. Have a safe trip."
"Thank u. I hate to burst ur bubble but the area im going to does not have sheeps. Only have Wild Horses and Wild Hares..."
"Ohhh... A wild horse it is then... Then i can ride into the sunset wif Batman..."
"Haha. Batmobil not enuf ke?? Ok ok. A wild horse it shall be..."
Rahman u funny funny guy. Hahahaha.
I ate so much...
*buncitness*